At the Tearing of the Void....

At the Tearing of the Void...the world one knows shatters. One Denies it. Then One is Sorrowful over it. Then the taste of acid forms on the tounge...and one's words and thoughts become bitter.

Why?

And why is it one can be at complete and utter peace with it all, and still feel bitter at people...with extra venom towards those who, often, don't even bother you?
Yet, at the same time, one feels need and want to be close to people...to hold or hug someone...
The Void as been torn, the world has been shattered.

Only Peace and Love can create a new reality now.

Aho,
.:.Abraxas.:.

Why is it...?

Why is it Death seems to bring people closer together? I find this a most bizarre occurance in the human experiance.
But then again...why not?

...
I.A.O.
Abraxas

Behold! Before thy very eyes...Gods and Demons...Awaken ye masses...Awaken...

For Aeons and Aeons and Aeons and Aeons...the Realms of Mankind have been that of chaos. Why?
Chaos is a bad thing when left alone. So is Order.
However, when we have Chaos and Order in a perfect Balance...then we have divinity. Then we have Allness.
So if that balance really is Allness, then through about 777 paradigms we should be able to say that that balance exists.
For the Allness is Allness, thus everything and nothing contains and is contained within the Balance of Chaos and Order. Also that said Balance is contains the Allness, just as the Allness is one with it. Does this make sense? If it makes sense on a level more than drooling at the screen, then you may be on your way to Mystical Madness...

On a more personal level:

My Grandmother is dying. She has a few days to a week left...at most.
Most probably a few days is pushing it. I will not get to see her one last time, and I am trying to be at peace with that...for every one's sake.
I find it odd, as all of this makes no sense...
but even beyond that is with all the Mysticism I have studied concerning Death...all the Philosophy, Rationalization, Mystification, uncovering of Mysteries et cetera I have undertaken about Death...
It is overwhelming. And even as I type these words, I feel numb to it all. Yet it random shrill shocks of Truth, I feel the crushing understanding. I am probably trying to block it off. I won't even see her again in this life. My only solice is I will see her again, after I die...Or maybe before...
I miss her. I will miss her.

What is Life without Death? What is Death without Life?
The Circle of Life(and Death) will always turn. The River of Existence shall forever flow. It is part of the experience.
For if a man never is touched by Death, then he has not had half of the experience of existence. And if a man is never touched by life, he is but a dead man walking.

To know thyself in life, thou must know thyself in death.

Behold! The Mighty Statues of Power! The Idols of the Past...for they hold for us the lessons we need in this new Aeon of Fools.

Know Thyself,
Abraxas
I.A.O.

So long has it been since my last post on this blog of mystical information and madman's ranting...

I feel the winds of change always, as do you all. Some of you choose to go numb and look the other way. It is as if you fear change, if you so choose to look the other way. Why is it we choose to fear that which we do not understand? Is not life the great journey to understand? Must everything remain an occult mysterie? I am sure many occultist would have it be this way...keep things from the "muggles". Keep all the normal folk, the unspiritual, the uninitiated...unenlightened in the dark. Yes, keep them ALL in the dark. For if we let our secrets out, we loose power. This is true. Knowlledge is Power. Gnosis is Divinity. However; as occultists, spiritual masters, gurus, wizards, shamans, et cetera...it is our duty to lead the those whos Dharma does not include seeking the unknownable truths. To guide the masses into knew levels of awareness. It is if, when on the other side putting things into order for our next incarnation, all the spiritual masters gathered and declared an Order of Messianic Leaders...to guide people...to show them the light (or enlightened shadow, however you choose to channel energy). We should know what information to show, and what to be exclusive with. Knowlledge is Power, and Power is dangerous. Some people honestly are not ready for certain truths...not ready for certain Gnostic Enlightenments...

My question to you, dear reader, is the following:
If you are a spiritual seeker, guru, occultist, metaphysician, (et cetera)...do you ever meditate on or think deeply about the topic of withholding information, or being careful with whom who share?
And for those who are not the mystics menttioned abouve...do you ever wonder about the unknown? Do you ever think about what is out there, that you do not understand or know about...but someone else very well may understand or known about? Also: do you ever find yourself wanting to take up a path of understanding the Mysteries? Do you ever feel your Dharma shifting to that of a spiritual path? Or maybe not shifting, but it was your truest Will to follow that said path...and you just been blind to it, or suppressed it?

Aho.

Give love to those who deserve it and return it in full, and give even more to those who are bitter...

Blessings,
Abraxas

Blows now does winds of Winter....

...as I fall into madness, as I seek the unseekable, as I die...the winds of winter blow.

Poetic, no? I cannot help but be poetic whilst listening to Lacrimosa (the song I keep listening to is called My Last Goodbye...I'll post a clip at the end.)

So...what do we do? Where do we go? Who do we love? Who do we hate? Do we even need to hate? Can some of us forget how to love?

What I must know is what defines right and wrong? Or are they just words...just dust in the wind? There are such details to what is okay and what is not...and they change for each person.

Closeness between humans is tested by human law like no one's business...and it is is a good thing oft...but I cannot help but feel frustrated. Not necessarily by humanity's laws of government...but rather by the unwritten, unchallenged, one-size-fits-all, idealistic, and someone retarded rules of society. American Society. Bleh.

How far can two people be in years?

Abraxas

Looking past what is...

...is very, very, very hard to do sometimes. For some it is impossible. For others it is like breathing.

I realize that I am stuck. Truthfully stuck. Like falling into waste deep mud. I am, as they say, stuck in a rut. I cannot seem to get out of my nervous, obsessive, lazy (et cetera) mind set. I have put too much credence into earthly things. I feel like I have lost my spiritual side.

I mean, I knew I lost it after all that time I spent depressed in the basement. That was worse than being stuck in the mud...that was cold as death. Not to mention our house is both haunted and infused with negative energy. I became overridden with anger, depression, thoughts of suicide...et cetera...it wasn't good. There had only been one thing during that time tying me to sanity...

I, thanks to my mom, pulled out of that...but it left me scarred.
I haven't been able to truly gain myself back...and I now am suffering the consequences of that such truth.

How does one reclaim a connection to the Divine? How does one re balance the energies of Light and Dark?

Dammit...I feel so lost...but lost in only one way. More like...stuck. Stuck in a rut.

I need to reclaim my spiritual side...I need to look past what is.

I need to see Truths. I mean...I see Truths. I have deep thoughts on spiritual ideas...and even beyond that. Yet, still not enough!

It seems that the only thing to do is gain discipline and continue to study the beauty in the world, and allow myself to only see beauty...or is that blinding?

I have been told many times I need to just stop worrying about the how...and just allow it to happen. I used to be able to do that, but I cannot find myself able to let go of my paranoia and give into the godforce of All.

Why I cannot is beyond me...and yes I have noticed how much "I" has been written in this post...I have been strangely aware of that. However, this post is about myself...and what I need to do...maybe some of you, my friends, have some spiritual advice?

Love and Blessings,
Abraxas I.:.A.:.O.:.

Where are we in the end?

Human experience seems to be one of extremes and imbalance...

One man runs wild in the realm of freedom/chaos
One man stands like stone in discipline/order

I ask you as a fellow being experiencing the human experience...When will we learn to reach a balance? When will life actually work?

I am pretty sure I am failing this Game of Life at the moment...

I have been told I need to become a man...and ascend from my childish ways of doing things. Maybe I should stop looking for a Right of Passage...and simply go out into the world and let the Initiation into Manhood come to me.

That is why I am being pushed out on my own at 18, and I truly am happy to be able to set on my own quest. But...where do I start? How do I do it? I need to find some fellow seekers to journey with and fast.

I am rather scared about what lies ahead.

But I know this:
There is Life. That is it. Life is. Life is not good, Life is not bad...Life is GOD, and GOD is perfect. That being said...one must either see the perfection, or be blinded by it and see only horror and disgust.

It is time to choose, I say unto thyn self.

Blessed Be,
Abraxas I.:.A.:.O.:.

Hailing in the New Year...2009! Hailing to Change, Enlightenment, Ascention, Truth, and Death/Rebirth!

Change is coming. Change is always coming.

Because of the simple Truth that is:

Change is Death, Death is. Life is equal to Death...as they cycle.
Change thus is a true symbol, rather than a word, meaning the cycle of life and death.

This cycle is such a beautiful thing. There is so much beauty in life...so much! Living is such an amazing journey, and death is just as beautiful...if not more so!

Life and Death do not just refer to lifetimes and beings. They also refer to everything.

2007 was for me a year of great death. I severed connections with my Father. I became an unschooler. I moved out of California...and living in Oregon was the first state I have lived in outside of Southern California... It truly was a great and powerful year of death. It was a Winter Year.

This past year (feels weird to say that), 2008, was a Summer/and Partial Spring Year. It was a year of suffering, divine suffering. There was some suffering in the end of 2007..but then again fertility came after Wintery Death...and pregnancy, I have been told, is more than painful. The essence of summer is fire, and 2008 was definitely a trial by fire! And the pangs of birth are coming to an end...2009 I believe shall be a harvest year!

Now...that being said, we must make a conscious decision to enter the New Realms of Thought and Spiritual Ascention of the Mind. If we as a people do not make at least a midium-sized Leap of Enlightenment on a level that is close to our Consious Mind, I will be honest, the un-awakened/un-enlightened/sleepwalking zombie people/cancerous humans/those focused on the material 100% will for the most part be blown away with the Winds of Change. Possibly in 2012. Maybe the coming of RivFader? (probably not...but keep an eye out for the White Serpent in the Nordic Sky, heh).

The Time has come to reveal secrets, and retain some for the safety of those who need them. Time has come to see beyond Time (and space).

I beleive those who live the Alternative Lifestyles, those who do not choose to conform...but rather chose to see beyond, either spiritually, artistically, intellectually, et cetera, will lead the revolutions of Truth. It may take longer than just a huge flash...or there made be a firey burst of change. I also beleive that the spiritual alts will be the stongest and most needed people in the coming Aeon of Truth.

Blessings my Friends, Foes, and Neutral readers...as alligments will oneday die too, it matters not what side you are on...or maybe it does...we can never be 100% sure of anything...but we can beleive.

May the Waves of Change be a Blessing not a Burdon to you all (thus you may want to seek out a new way of seeing the world),

Abraxas, the Alternative Wizard.

Hail RivFader! I.:.A.:.O.:.

Post Scriptum: Forgot to mention...Happy New Year, Brothers and Sistes of the Tribe of Gaia.

More thoughts...more odd occurrences...

I was listening to Rivfader last evening in mom's office. I was hungry, tired, and kinda weak...my vital energy has been low lately...and I fell into a half-trance like sleep. I saw a really weird vision of sorts:

I was being held prisoner by some person in a red neck backyard...trapped in nothing but air...in an almost crucified position. There were large snakes on either wrist...but they didn't weigh my arms down. The one on my right one was redish-pink..and the one on the left was greenish. They both bit my arms. I was watching this from the perspective of at first myself in the vision...then from the view of the one who was holding me captive..somehow...
I watches as I phased somewhat fast, and continuously through the stages of being a child wit grey hair, a young man(25?), and a tall old man. They didn't look like me..but they were me. I tried to shake the vision off but then I saw what I really looked like 3-5 years old...then I shook it all off and got up as mom came into the room.

I had been listening to the more mystical part of the song RivFader.

Any Ideas?

Then this morning apparently I was sitting in bed and I said something to mom in a foreign language then asked about where some other phone was...indicating to a wall..or something..I don't remember anything...I hope she blogs about..then I'll re post her post about it XD...she then said, at the end, you are dreaming..and I said "okay" and fell back asleep...

I awoke not long after that...I was oddly lucid after that dream-talking experience...my body was awake...which ne'er happens during the morning XD


Now for the thoughts.

Do you think...as I do...that it is impossible to do something you don't want to?
I think it is pretty strong..I am trying to figure this specific impossibility out...as with my other theories, metaphysical equations, and the such.


I find it amazing how one thing leads to another...then you can sometimes be so thankful to something conversational that sparks several other conversational topics..then you learn something about someone that makes you hurt, sick, and so angry you want to go tear someones head off with your bare hands? I was grateful to the topic of modern primitivism/tribal body modification...for revealing something else about someone I thought I liked...BLEH! BLEH BLEH BLEHHH!!!!!

BLEHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I should change topics again before I either hack something up making exclaimed noises of disgust; or I get angry, hurt, and sickened.

So...maybe I should allude to another topic?

I had an interesting experience at Best Buy the other night when I went to buy my MP3 player (<3). I learned that Best Buy recently put in a musical instrument section. I talk to this guy about what I need to do vocals in a band...he was showing me a certain mic, amp, and mic converter (that he didn't have..just told me about it)...then he said the unexpected...

"Want to come back to my place and dance naked to black metal and summon Cthulhu from the seas of darkness?"

Kidding...
What he actually said wasn't as shocking...

Something along the lines of picking your favourite chemical substance, then getting a Super Nintendo and playing the Street Fighter that is really fast graphically..or something (I am not sure...I was just saying what I remember him saying), then listen to DragonForce (an ok...just ok...metal band with amazingly fast solos..and all o'er guitar...)
Chemical substances...and drugs in general are not my thing...so we laughed and moved on.
Then he went to to help another customer (he said he wanted to keep talking..but it got late and I had to leave...thus I couldn't wait for him to finish.) but in the time I did wait..I had some fun...:
I found a keyboard that has a screen and a mouse...I scrolled with the mouse to change the instrument, and eventually had a heavy electric guitar. I ripped out this amazing solo on their for like 10 minutes strait XD! Then I went o'er to the electric drums...set it on double bass drums...and played some black metal drums...which was quite brutal...and hard to do...to keep the double bass in the constant onslaught is murder to one's legs...but worth it.

While I was playing keyboard my gum disintegrated/melted in my mouth (not sure how), and I had to swallow it...which was gross and bitter. haha...was actually quite funny afterwards ..and now even more so.

Well...with that I bow farewell...and I am hoping there will be food at the office soon XD. I am rather hungry...in both the normal human...and well...Vamp types of hunger...(energy...both kinds O.o)

Blessings,
I.:.A.:.O.:.
Abraxas


Post Scriptum:
check out this song from Korpiklaani called Karhunkaatolaulu (which translates to "Bear Hunt Song"):
It is really quite amazing ^,..,^

One thing I must ask you...

...why is there such a lack of comments on my blog? If you read this, COMMENT IT! Then I know that people are reading what I write, thinking about it, and placing commentary with it!!!!!

I.:.A.:.O.:.
Abraxas

About to go to bed...

and tomorrow I will open presents, cook a turkey, and celebrate life.

That is all.

Abraxas.:..:..:.


Post Scriptum:

Watch this piece of beautiful music:

Why is it...?

Why is it I don't have to know how something will work out for it manifest? Is it all about letting go? I like to think I don't have a ruling ego...but I believe I must..at times at least...Mayhap thinking I don't have a ruling ego shows I have a strong ego.

Why is it I cannot know? I know why I cannot know...to be uncertain...to not know is truly divine and wise. As, if you know...you cannot learn, and truthfully not learning is impossible. If we did not learn...out lives would be pointless and dull. Not just pointless and dullness in the way human minds will view those terms...but a pointlessness and dullness that are so true to the essence of their torturous meanings that we cannot grasp the true essence of that damned pitfall of existence that is truly impossible. The pointlessness and dullness that an existence without learning or teaching would bring is beyond insanity, chaos, order, truth, lies, humanity, and the very energy of wordism that I am using to create these teachings...just the theory I am currently creating (more on this at a later time), this ponders the truly impossible wavelengths of thought...

There are certain things that we just cannot, with human brains, process. Things that cannot be expressed in words, mundane thoughts...and sometimes even art of any form...but rather only in spiritual realizations!

Thus are we cursed? Or...are we protected? Protected from the impossible that is the Truth? Maybe the mundane masses of humanity are the ones needing the protection...but there are the alternative wavelengths of energy...the currents that do not just go with the flow of the Great River of Life...but lead others through it...

Those who live on the boundaries of our world as we know it...who ponder, make others ponder...or just are (alternative).

It is late in the DarkMorning (3:55 in the A.M. at this point)(56 as soon as I finished the closer parentheses of the 55 bit) and I am hoping I am making sense.

Alas though..I must spell check this post and go to bed. Tomorrow, or rather this day I must prepare the turkey for the Feast of the Mass of Christ (XD)...or rather Christmas...the biggest Clausian Hollyday.

Well my brothers and sister, Blessings.
Abraxas, Stranger in Strange World.

Post Scriptum: Please do comment on this...I have been lacking in comments and I don't like that...allow my words to inspire thinking folks! Fall not into the mold of most sleeping human zombies!!! .:.

So now this early Nothern Morning I write what comes to mind....

It seems the world goes by fast at times, then that same speed dies and allows for the slowness of all true suffering to exist...Then again, sometimes speeding of events is the greater pain. If you are stuck in fire but cannot die, and things were to pass slowly...you burn slowly for eternity in superior pain...and forever would last forever. As for fast, well...Glory and fame could be something that occurs (just as a example I use these things, so forgive my delving so wholly into the material...but allow me the indulgence as it makes it easier to teach my madness...and thus it should be easier to learn as well I should hope) for a short period of time...then it can be over at the snap of fingers, or the burning of a match.

Thus if we are to accept the aforementioned, we can give basis to conjure back to mind the neo-idea...the one that states that time doesn't exist.

And what is with all this 2012 stuff? It is confusing my already recovering mind. I mean...there is a lot out there. The one this Mystic seems to enjoy entertaining to great possibility of is....
Something about how half of the human race will perish, and those who survive are those who are in touch with there Dharma...or mayhap it twas they are in touch with spiritual truth...A mix of the two seems most appropriate.

We have contemplated how it will occur; if it does...Mom had asked if it would be plague...I thought warfare...
Who knows?

It seems there are a lot of doomsday prophecies to go along with this...maybe the world will be cleansed of those who have preyed upon the goddess Gaia for too long.

The Cthulhu Cultist believe that Cthulhu and the Old Ones will rise out of their sleeping trance-dreaming state....and rise from their resting places. Cthulhu is said to live in the corpse city of R'lyeh, and when the stars are right we will awaken. His loyal followers shall open the doors of his chambers and set him free to plunder from world to world....and I think they will be at his side...I need to read more on it.

I like how Finntroll has written, through their lyrics of course, an entire mythology and history surrounded the trolls. Such as the legendary Troll-King Rivfader: it is said that when the white serpent appears in the Nordic sky, then Rivfader shall rise from his sleep to "Strike down the Christian Plague of the North."

This one seems powerful at the least...and seems to go along with the Cthulhu deal...except they get a reptilian sea-monster god priest....
And the Trolls get a King...a powerful king. I am pretty sure Rivfader translates to Rip-Father. He tears flesh from bone or something like that...*brutal*

Here are the lyrics to the song Rivfader (there are other songs that reference to Rivfader...but the song Rivfader is the best source for information on the sleeping Troll-King...as far as I know at the moment. I still have yet to read through the English versions of all the songs...then I can understand the Troll's history, mythology, and everything else...the Et Cetera bin, if you will.

Lyrics were found at www.darklyrics.com

Original Swedish:

Ut långt långt långt i skogen där brinna en eld
Ut långt långt långt i skogen där springa en ulv
Sönder ska han trasa kött och ben av kristi lamm

Nu stiga ohygglig fasa
ur gravens kyla mull och damm
Han kommit igen för att slita huvud och lem.
Äntligen har RivFader kommit hem

"Århundraden må löpa
människoliv må vittra bort
Ty när den vite ormen skådas på den norra himmelen
då skola RivFader stiga ur sin långa sömn
för att slå ner nordens kristna plåga"

Ut långt långt långt i skogen där springa en ulv
Ut långt långt långt i skogen där brinna en eld
Ur vittrans brasa stiga onda tankar fram


The English Translation:

Out far, far, far in the forest there burns a fire
Out far, far, far in the forest there runs a wolf
He shall tear apart flesh and bones of the christian lamb

Now rises appalling terror
from the grave's cold soil and dust
he's coming back to tear heads and limbs down
Finally RivFader has come home

"May centuries run,
may men's lives crumble down.
When the white serpent beholds in the Nordic sky
then shall RivFader rise from his long sleep
to strike down the christian plague of the North."

Out far, far, far in the forest there burns a fire
Out far, far, far in the forest there runs a wolf
From the scent of bonfires evil thoughts are rising


This part was included exactly as copied (both lyrical sets were copied and pasted...worry not):

[A great wolf lurks in the forest and an evil fire burns between the trees. Two prophecies predicting the return of RivFader, a legendary troll-king who once ruled the northern lands. When the white serpent is seen on the arctic sky RivFader returns and shall strike down the followers of the christian plague. Hail, RivFader!]


...
So this gives us some interesting information on Rivfader...not enough though...not enough...

But there should be attention paid to the quoted prophecie in the middle of the song:


"Århundraden må löpa
människoliv må vittra bort
Ty när den vite ormen skådas på den norra himmelen
då skola RivFader stiga ur sin långa sömn
för att slå ner nordens kristna plåga"

AKA:


"May centuries run,
may men's lives crumble down.
When the white serpent beholds in the Nordic sky
then shall RivFader rise from his long sleep
to strike down the christian plague of the North."


.............

This will give us something to think on...mayhap one day I will write a short non-fiction on what I have learned about the Trolls of Finntroll's lore and legends.

I must do some research into the Trolls of legends of Aeons past...


Troll Pride!
http://www.myspace.com/trollpride
Hail, Rivfader.
Abraxas.

.:..:..:.

PS: there is a youtube "video" of sorts on the last post containing the song Rivfader. I shall post a differnt video here however...containing the same song.




This is a studio version of the song here: (it differs from the normal version, barely it seems, but none the less...maybe the vibes from this original shall aid us in unlocking the secrets of Rivfader...)




Troll Pride! (again) Hail RivFader!!!

Musik Post...

I plan on doing a music-based blog...but..I feel like I should do a music based post here. The blog will be metal based...maybe i'll do another blog non-metal ecclectic music...

So I shall do some three different genres...

Let's start with Black Metal...Gorgoroth, and Dimmu Borgir.

Gorgoroth - Carving a Giant



Gorgoroth - Unchain My Heart



Dimmu Borgir - Black Metal (it's a cover)



Now Troll Metal...

Finntroll is a Troll Metal band that mixes Black Metal with Finnish Polka called Humpa.

Finntroll - Rivfader



Finntroll - Nedgang




Now...another Troll Metal band TrollfesT,...they are more on the folky..and drunken side..

TrollfesT - Trinkenvisen



TrollfesT - PiratKriegen




And for the final genre...we have FOLK METAL!!!! Pure Fucking FOLK METAL, Fuckers! YARHARHARHARHAR!XD

Korpiklaani - Keep on Galloping



Eluveite - Inis Mona



Moonsorrow - Sankarihauta




Hail to the Metal my brothers of the Hammer!

Abraxas

Of Twilight's Teen Vampires, Romance, Blood, Faux Fangs, and Friends...

I just got back from the midnight premiere of Twilight! It was AMAZING!..MAGICKAL!..and I could throw about an infinite amount of words out to describe how amazing this night was...:P...but eventually I would sadly run out of words and start making various noises and sound effects...I am guessing a few would be obscene...and a few would turn heads with faces that had expressions cast unto them..expressions of supreme oddness. (Or rather like they have acknowledged the oddness.)

Well, any who, I went with several friends...Shellie (who bought my ticket as a I.O.U. Birthday present, thanks again BTW), Isaac (who made some interesting commentary with me during the previews and film...and during the pre- and post- stages as well XD), Marie, Ryan, Andrew and his sister, Shellie and Marie's mom, and Ryan's mom...though some of the later are not as close as the the formers. The movie was beyond amazing...truly ^,..,^

And yes...I wore my fangs...how could I deny the chance to show of the image of Vampire...being a Vampyre myself? Shellie also wore fangs...though hers where not as notice-able...they were subtle kind, and mine are the more theatrical kind...may be the "Naturals" or maybe her's were the naturals...I know not.

All in all I had an amazing time. I felt very connected, through this popular image of a vampire, to my psychic vampyrism. I don't think it would be half bad to be more like the charismatic vampire, eh? Michelle Belanger says the Psychic Vampyre has a charisma that is very mysterious...which I agree with...maybe I try to be more like who I am inide? It has just made me think...about all that. If I try to be more like the person I am internally...then will I be happier? Or will I fall into madness? I opt for happiness..with a hint of insanity. I think that would make for an ideal eccentric alternative lifestyle, don't you? Well..I shall do that very thing...I'll work physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to unlock my innerself and step into that truth...it should be amazing.

Well my friends...It is time I got some sleep...

Blessings and Best wishes for your personal quests my friends,
And know I raise my glass: heres to finding my Bella Swan...

.:.Abraxas; Wizard, Vampyre, Poet, and seeker of truth, love, and divine happiness....:.

PS: Isaac...Cat...XDXDXD

It has been ages since I have posted...

I haven't posted since this summer....and I must write...as A LOT has happened since that post.

First we went to Phantom of the Opera...I cannot recall the date...but it was amazing!!! A magickal, gothique and romantic performance. I absolutely loved it.

Then I attended the second Oregon session of NBTSC, also known as Not Back to School Camp. I was transformed by the experience. It was one of the more amazing things ever... The amount of love felt between everyone at camp was beyond words...and the number of hugs I gave and received I truly cannot count... I had many spiritual revelations...and what seemed like a mystical/spiritual awakening. It may have had something to do with the ceremonies; my spiritual openness; the pure energy of love and goodness in the air; or maybe it was the fact that I slept in the frigid night air, surrounded by the giants trees...the earthen brothers and sisters, and under the infinite stars and planets in the sky...the astral gods and goddess they were...and we could see them all. (Including shooting stars every minute so it seemed...)...but in truth it was all of that that brought me to a point of higher spiritual awakening. (also my dreams in the cold air, with the trees and under the stars were very vivid, eccentric, trippy , and mystical...wonder if that counts for something?) I did get really sick..and I did lack A LOT of sleep! But I think the spiritual energy that was infused in the whole of camp through all mentioned above...and the fact that there was a lot of ambient energy I was able to feed off of that really kept me going. (Speaking of feeding off of energy..don't even get me started on the energy experimenting Eddie and I did with Seth, Levi, and Maelstrom ...there may have been others but I am not sure XD)

Then the night before my birthday I saw my first metal concert with mom! Not just any concert either...it was my favourite band ever...from Finland...: Nightwish!!!!

The Nightwish concert was amazing, and it blew me away...It was truly surreal...
The opening act by another symphonic metal band from Finland, was Sonata Arctica...
Now Sonata puts on an amazing show...and I really got into their music that night. On the my birthday the next day, aka 9-11, I ordered two of their albums using an e-gift card my good friend, and spiritual student gave to me earlier that month.

It has been an interesting journey since. These days after my new homeopathic remedy I have been feeling adventurous and ready for the great quest of life. Seeking myself and the mystical truths.

Namasté, Blessed Be, and May Your Path be Blessed by the Spirits of Goodness,
Abraxas the Wizard, Vampyric Mystic, and Shaman of the Darkness and Mysterie...

(PS...if any members of The Unseen Path read this...place comments..we need to reunite, Blessings)

I have an idea...

... lets see how many comments can this post bring in.
I'm aiming for 1000 +

Change is scary...

especially when one "awakens" to somthing...they cant even really tell people...grr.

This shit leads me to being nocturnal and what not...as I cannot sleep any night!

And bright lights have been killing me....grrr...and the rest...well...maybe someone will understand this...its just a mile stone for me...

4th of july...and clearing up from an old post...

I must say my Fourth of July was pretty grand. We had our own fireworks...and we made friends as well ^.^

Earlier in the day I had a breakdown...and it was pretty bad...but I got over it...and had a good time.




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now for the clear up...
I had posted before about Megan...and then my friend Isaac left a comment. (Hope I am spelling your name right...names and me do not mix, heh) He has said somthing about her and I was like, "oh.. forgot to say.."
for the record, we broke up a few months back...but are still really really good friends...but I wanted to clear the confusion.

That's all for this Post...I'm sure i'll post more this early morning...

Blessed Be,
Abraxas

Musical Post...

I have to plug a few videos of various types...nothing metal today...just a few pieces I really like, here we go:

Rasputina - "1816 the Year Without a Summer"



Kikyo's Theme:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdbieHYY0z0 (This song invokes strong sadness...I love it)


Marco Hietala (my fav. singer...he is metal..this song isn't) - Ave Maria



(not metal..but a metal band:) Korpiklaani doing some Yoiking:




Stay Artistic thy knows selves,
Panther